FEELING OF GUILT

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A day when I acquired a new asset,  a day that I will not forget,

 A day when I destroyed my moral compass, only left with regret

I took a friend’s phone left on the desk,  a horrible mistake made by me,

I took a friend’s phone left on the desk, when there was no one else to see!   

I tried to give it back but my mind changed a bit,

then further thought and decided,”Why not keep it?”

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Returning to the hostel, everyone busy searching there,  I saw rushing all around,

peering into every room– hoping that the phone would be found.

Frightened by seeing faces with fury,

I managed to hide it in a hurry

When I went to the friend to take a look,

whose phone I willingly took.

I saw his sorrow and pale face,

I felt from inside a feeling of disgrace.

Realizing that I have made a big mistake,

I said to myself, “I am not a friend but a fake.”

A burden of stress started to build, feeling pains of guilt,

I decided to give it back, and take leave of this dishonest quilt!

But I had no courage to return the stolen goods in front of everyone!

I wrote a letter of apology to him, my honesty a bastian.

             confessing my fault and asking for forgiveness,

I placed it with the phone in his room, amid the midnight  darkness.  

  In the morning I saw his feeling of joy,

His finding of what was lost and not destroyed

Then I felt relief from within,

and so sorry for my sin

so sorry for being host,

of wrong and selfish thoughts…almost!

 by
KAMLESH ORAON

(Actually my phone was taken and returned a day after with the name unknown)
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A CONFESSION

bfFrom many years hidden in my heart,

A love slow like bullock cart.

My first love with my classmate,

Always thought she is my true fate.

Sitting and watching her all the time,

Sometimes she gave weird look,

As if it was a crime.

Sometime we sat together in the class,

Wondered how quick time used to pass.

Sharing lunch during breaks,

Knowingly I brought her favorite cakes.

Friends teased me taking her name,

And I used to feel childish shame.

After school waiting for a while,

Looking at each other with a cute smile.

I didn’t knew it was love or not,

Though for her with one boy I fought.

Years passed, neither I nor she expressed,

I thought she was not impressed,

Neither was I good-looking nor genius.

Within, my heart was making fuss.

On last day of school when classes meant to end

She wrote in my hand BEST FRIEND.

Still I was happy and in mood to cheer,

I gifted her memories in form of teddy bear.

From that day I have never seen her,

But in my eyes she always mesmerize.

                  by KAMLESH ORAON